The more videos I watch of people taking the "risk" of going after their dreams and succeeding, the less of a freak I feel like.  I would be lying if I said I didn't care what people thought about me in regards to my "employment" status.... but then the other day it dawned on me.... Why am I caring about what other's think [the one's who can't relate to taking risks] when if anything, I should be looking to those who have or do take risks and know exactly what goes on in one's mind.

What spawned my realization, was this video of Rachel Elnaugh : business mentor & entrepreneur 

which I found while searching entrepreneurial videos on youtube

I can't tell you how much better I felt about my situation after hearing her say "every entrepreneur has a dark period" and that she was sooo close to giving up. I too have felt this way many times. What helps bring me out of some of those dark periods is my husband Jesse. He reminds me of why I like to design and be creative, and that if I didn't make a go of my company/brand, then no one would know of my Roxy Marj world.  We all have favorite designers, musicans, and for some, like me: illustrators. What if they didn't exist and everything looked and sounded the same? I also know that I wouldn't be who I was without those other pioneers paving a way and creating product to be inspired by. 

One of the other things that Rachel Elnaugh said in her talk that caught my attention was: "Ask for help, it's amazing how many people suffer in silence." This really is why I use my blog so often as a platform, so if there happens to be anyone out there going through similar experiences... you hopefully won't feel so all alone like I do somedays. With that said I am thinking about starting a small bi-weekly meet up that is centered around entrepreneurship and how to help one another even if it's only from telling personal stories that we can relate too....as well as be inspired by. 

 I just saw this video over at A Few Things From My Life - This inspiring video is of a couple who had an idea, and with perseverance, a good work ethic and faith led to bigger things. 

Lastly, so I end on a good note with anyone reading about my current situation... there's a new sheriff in town folks, and she has chutzpah! Watching entrepreneurial video after video and listening to podcasts about growing your business has significantly changed my mindset on how I look at what it is I am trying to do with Roxy Marj as a brand. And really, what I think it boils down to is believing in yourself [a common theme re-iterated in these videos] working hard, and well into the night most likely and never ever giving up! :)