Behind on posting...have been pre-occupied with something a little more important... Which must be a big deal since blogging is one of favorite things to do! Anyhoo... I have been thinking a lot about dogs lately and I think I may be ready to get another dog...it has been 2 1/2 years since I had to give my Little Yorkshire Terriers away, and that was actually the hardest thing I have ever experienced so far in my life. I have huuuuuge abandonment issues over this...to the point that I should see a therapist :( I think about Stella & Sebastian every.single.day! I do! :( But I do know that they are happy and living a good life. Every time I think about wanting another dog, I quickly stomp that thought for fear of me betraying Stella & Sebastian...but the more time that goes by, the more I feel okay about getting another dog. I guess the one thing I am worried about is not being able to love that dog as much as my past two dogs....but especially as much as Sebastian! He was my first dog & my best friend! I CANNOT imagine a better/funnier/sweeter dog than Sebastian.... :/ BUT, I need to apply the same mindset that I have with guys, which is to not think that I won't be able to find/imagine someone better than the one I am/was with. <- hahaha lol!!! Dear me... dear DEAR me!!!
I really did put a stop to that kind of thinking a couple years ago [thinking there was noone better]... there will always be someone better than the last..and if one lives life that way, they will never be content. Rather I choose to look at each past relationship I have had with a fellow and think of the positive things that I have gained from that, which have then made me a better more well-rounded person. <--- hopefully. That is my hope. Not saying it is true. But..one can only hope. Ughhhh I hope I just made sense here...it is 1:30 am...taking a break from a project I am working on..and have a couple more hours to go. I am tired. :/ Annnnyways. There was a lot that I gained from having Stella & Sebastian as my companions...and there will be some new & possibly different things that I could learn from another dog...or perhaps the same. Confession: I would like to get another Yorkshire Terrier, but I haven't gotten to that point yet where I feel comfortable getting another yorkie [replacement issues] So, my next best choice is getting an Airedale Terrier! A GIGANTIC version of a Yorkshire Terrier! And, my confession....If I am able to get one... I secretly hope he will be EXACTLY like Sebastian!!!! :) That would be too hysterical though!